If you guys remember a few weeks ago I stated I was going on a “faith challenge”. Why? I realized God’s word is true and without faith it’s impossible to please Him (Hebrews 11:6). My “faith challenge” ended this past Friday (Feb 14). Check out what I learned.
How come no one ever told me how negative I can be?
Prior to my faith challenge I thought I was a pretty upbeat person. I wasn’t walking around all emo, and I was excited about the future. However, I never realized how negative my thoughts and words can be. It’s crazy, because as soon as I begin to notice this, I had to put a reminder on my phone in order to remember I was doing a faith challenge (pictured above). This helped, but it didn’t cure completely. I soon discovered that I was guilty of what my mama refers to as “stinking thinking”. For example: While applying for a job, midway through I’ll give up, saying to myself “They aren’t’ going to hire me anyway” or “This is a waste of time”. It doesn’t end there. My thoughts seemed to be negative about anything good that could possibly happen for me. It’s crazy, because even though I consider myself to be a growing Christian, I couldn’t allow myself to truly believe and live out the following:
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11
Fear will paralyze you!
I always thought of myself as this fearless woman, who’s going after her dreams no matter what. Man, I was in for a rude awakening. The truth is, I have HUGE dreams that are attainable, but fear keeps me from going after most of those dreams. The excuses are endless: “It isn’t the right time”, “I need more likes on my Facebook fan page”, or a simple flat out “They won’t pick me”. Seriously, was I unconsciously trying to be my own worst critic? If so, I was going beyond the call of duty. Ew. Don’t get it twisted, there are a few dreams I have pursued, but it seems like the BIG ones scare the crap out of me. So, instead of actually going hard, I’d make excuses on why I need to wait. Bologna. All of that has officially changed. I wish y’all could see the list of things I’m working on now that I got my mojo back.
But all God ever really wanted for me to do is simply step out…
Am I the only one who had a hard time with these trust exercises? If my mind serves me correctly, I think I was even dropped one time. Smh. It’s justifiable to be apprehensive about trusting humans, however, we tend to have the same reaction with God. Ekkkkkkkkk… I know I’m guilty. During my faith challenge, I learned all God wanted me to do was to simply get the ball running, and he would complete the rest. All he wanted me to have was a little faith and TRY! Seriously, I can’t share everything right now, but a few mountains were moved and I know it was nothing but my faith.
I’ve shared with a few people the things that God did for me on my faith challenge. I’m so happy that it’s inspired them to begin their own faith challenge as well. Even though I’m technically done with the challenge, I still check myself whenever I’m having faithless thoughts, behavior, etc. It’s now my lifestyle, which I like to refer to as “walking on water”.
Have you started a faith challenge? I’d love to hear all about it! Know someone who needs to read this? Share